one foot at a time
not quite finding the rhythm
I wobble along
"Progress" - Pink Cat
Hi all!
So, I'm definitely not moving along as smoothly as I would have liked. My desktop computer isn't even plugged in right now because I rearranged my room and now, I need another power strip. (Well, I needed one before, but I was able to make it work, now, the outlets are just barely too far to reach. Also, I've got a bunch of books on the ground and boxes of stuff that can sit in storage, but I haven't put them away yet... haven't figured out where. I do like this set up, but it's not finished. I have been recording from my desktop, so now I need to figure out the background, but I haven't done that yet.
I was thinking maybe I could do another drawing video, I was working on a little logo for my YouTube channel just yesterday, but I didn't screen record anything that I did, so it just is what it is.
I feel like I'm running around without a clear sense of what to do right now, or just barely being able to keep up with what I need to at the moment. Going to the grocery store triggered my anxiety and my energy dropped (I was getting chocolate chips for chocolate chip cookies) I wanted to shut down and not do that. But then when I successfully came home, with the chocolate chips in tow, I found I didn't have any baking soda... kinda a key ingredient in cookies...
Already, though, I was done.
I messaged my grandmother asking if she had any, but my intent to go out of the house again was dwindling. I could have just gone and shown up, but there would have been people I had to interact with, and I just couldn't bring myself to. Couldn't work up the energy to.
She messaged me later that night telling me I could have just come. I just sighed, not really feeling like I could have made it work. I was already on the edge. I already wanted to cry, to relieve the pressure, the stress.
So, instead, I climbed up to bed and crawled under the blankets. And then back out again, cause it was too hot XD.
I turned on my sleep playlist on Spotify and allowed myself to float into sleep.
Dream stuff... I'm sure that I had some crazy dreams last night; though, I can't quite recall them. Maybe I'll share some of the dreams I've had here as well. After all, I get a lot of my story ideas from dreams.
Anyhoo, that's all for today!
Here's to the best moving forward. It seems overwhelming, but one step at a time
Find Joy!
- Pink Cat
P.S. Oh yeah! I am switching jobs soon. I gave my two weeks at my current one and am taking up a new job in the postal service starting September 21st. That's been a big thing. And! after a while of searching for a roommate to fill the third room in our apartment, we have found someone! She's pretty great, her family came to check it out with her, and she's planning on moving in on Friday of this week. (It's Wednesday right now for future readers)
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