You have a goal, you don't know how to reach that goal. It takes a lot of effort to work on this goal. It seems it will take forever to reach this goal... You are in the middle of feeling like it will never happen and maybe you should just give up because it's proving to be too difficult for you and no matter how hard you work it will never come true...
It's only been a week since I started on this story, and I've been really consistent about writing in it or at least exploring the story ideas and characters every day. I missed maybe one day, but that was semi on purpose since it was Sunday. Anyhow, I've run into my first state of writer's block...
So, with all the craziness of feeling like I was running out of money, searching for a new job, getting a new roommate, and then finally getting the new job and starting with all the new things, my brain had no room to be creative. It had no energy to do so as all of the energy was spent elsewhere, just trying to survive.
Today, I had a day off from work. I've been working nearly every day, minus Sundays, for a couple of weeks, and it gets to be a little exhausting. I needed a break, so I was really grateful when my manager reached out and said I could have today off. I spent it mostly watching YouTube videos :PBut, I also used it for cleaning. I vacuumed the stairs, hallway, and my room. It was really great! I love the look and feel of freshly vacuumed carpet <3 I also folded and put away laundry (a task that needed to be done many weeks in a row, but hey, as long as they're clean, it's probably okay if they just sit in a pile for a bit...
I had a dream... I was wearing a large apple as a shirt near the end of it, and when I woke, my thoughts were, "That was weird." But then I kept thinking and went from apple shirt to fruit leather, and then leather for clothes... so fruit clothes, so what if fairies wore clothes made of fruit leather? but fruit leather is too sticky and wouldn't last and would be prone to attracting bugs and mold and stuff... so then I was thinking is there a way to preserve it to make it work?
I switched jobs, I now work for the post office. I'm a mailwoman now! That took a lot of effort to apply and get all the information in order and my background check and everything and then after I was hired, there was a two-week period for training. Don't get me wrong, I am really grateful for the training, it has helped me feel prepared for my job, I just also want to say it was tiring. I did it though! I'm ready for delivering mail and packages!
Thursday morning, I had an epiphany.
one foot at a time
Well, hello!
Well, this post is a little rushed, I do want you all to know that XP
I have 2 things I am setting out to learn. I want to get better at constructing these blog posts, so I'm specifically focusing on how to write better creative nonfiction - I found a Great Courses DVD course on it and start watching and learning from it last week. (It's from 2012, so not super recent, but it still will have lots of good information to help, so why not use all my resources?)
Well, I finally know what it's like to have to be sick while working a full-time job.
